Love Or What ?

While I was thinking to write about love, my sight caught them. They were walking togather, his hand around her back, they were laughings as drankers drank at inn for long time. Both of them were around 40 years old. I dont know why she involved in love with him in this helpless way!. their image didnt leave my thoughts, I couldnt write that day any word !. I didnt want to think about it anymore..
Days after while I was standing out my door again same sight, many times again while I was looking through my window. I watched her many time comming to his flat to flirt with him, kissing and you can imagine what at present his wife and both of his daughters and his sons . Sometimes she was comming his flat with her son and other times I saw her company with her daughter. They were behaving as a wife and husband. Somtimes kissing at niehbourhood freely. other times fighting in load voice then hugging and Walking out togather,They were wife and husband look like. Her daughter is almost a woman already , she is 19 year old ! .I wondered for awhile are they fools in love or they feel in love ?. Whatever was what related both of them to each other I dont like it .. I smelt betray with kind of disgrace according to my thinking style. I invistigated about her and her family, she is around 40 , got young son and young daughter, her husband was working along day to make life to her and his family. Whatever her husband wasnt provide to her love as she wanted, Whatever he was careless with her ! Thats a reason to betray him in this age after long marriage life! did she found at that man a replacer to make her beloved and give her body of hear love words Or this what related them is calling love ? .. I didnt give up, I tried to find answers to my asks !. Hence I investigated about him, I asked his wife and family. his wife said to me that he had many girlfriends involved with him before . From here I recognized that man was playful and helpless mamalish love seeker.. Its Desire may be. I can clear it as she found her Needs in him and he found in her what He want !.. From my poor experince in life I can say they arent in love and love never knock their hearts!.. what do you say ?
Heroine

Love is Air ..

Air and water,,
life and love .
falling in love is an air in life .. care is water in love .. Air is love ,, Water is Care . Air, It can not be seen, It cant be caught but without it there isnt life, its give life, its can be felt. Its magic of love. I cant stay alive without air, I cant stay alive without love .. Water, it can not be seen , it cant be caught , but it makes life continue .. Care gives power to love .. Care is water in love .. Water, It gives life to plant , its give life to all creatures .. Without water life stop, without care love die ..
Seed , plant , flower , fruit and again seed ! ..... love , share , joy , two hearts and again love ! Air , Water and sunlight .... love , care and joy in life ...
Heroine

Visions Of Love

Forest of bushes,, a Romantic aroma under an old tree branches shadow, An oasis of pure water in deserts dry land ,, oh a pair of lovebirds swims under m00n light .. Quite pretty sight, what a beautiful nature! How a great God ,, Its love visions ,, Its love tune in music of heart .. In Love music a deaf can listen and touch , love music melt iceberg .. Love
its light shine as stars in darkness.. When i was so little girl , i used to listen my grandma tales, i was listening love stories then loss in sleep and sink in warm dreams..
once grandma told me a story of pertty and beast, she said love got no eyes, Love loses its reason and logic. love touchs heart indeed, Love Sees beauty nothing more else.. But I didnt believe, But I thought my grandma lost her reason . Just When I met you, I lost my eyes' vision . . When I met you I found inner self . . buiral love inside my heart arise alive . . I found myself I can cotrol world but I dont want anything but be with you more . .
I felt When earth move, its move on our heartbeats . . When Sun Shine its reflect shine of our eyes when meets,, Where there is a smile it find a chance give brith on our lips . . Oh I lost in love lake,, its love season ,, its love world . . Its love spell talking . . Sunset burnt skin of Sky . .
Sky smile for us,, Sky give rain and clean dust of past , fall your drops on umbrella above our close faces within minute forget crowd road and sound of falling rain drops,, sound of our heartbeats so clear on our ears. . I lost I need to cry, I need to Smile, I need your love to write our story on every drop of rain and every star sleep at sky . . I dont know why I need to listen your voice all the time . . I dont know why I need to look at your eyes all my time without any bored . . I need to be more close than your heartbeart to you . . Promise me , you love me in this way .. smile I love you .. I love you so true ..

I'm Waiting. For You ..

A pair Of Bird sat on my room window ...
A sunny day after long cloudy winter ..
Spring Came with a new romantic weather !,, wet grass ,, green bushes,,colorful flowers and blue pure water oasis ,,
what a wonderful nature is!.
Its wedding party of earth and sky ,,all creature in water,on earth and also at sky celebrates and hangging around with joy,,
angels sounds of dancing, singing and preparing for wed Mass i can hear clearly..
Earth is on its wonderful phase getting ready for long waited day...
Just I woke Up , its march, my everlasting love day... You isnt here this march again? ..
I will wait you next march..

Love is an Ocean of Tears Without You ...

Love is Nothing if its isnt for you ..
Love is an Ocean of Tears Without You ...
I know I cant Be Yours here on earth . . .
But I Believe in Love of Souls and I know Sky has made a beautiful place for US there . . .
I Believe in love as I believe its found in my heart just for you . . .
If I'll be for someone else on earth, I know I cant feel in love with as way I love you . . .
I know I cant touch your face anymore...
But My soul stays there Company you . . .
I love you . . .
Love is a Sad Love Story Without You ...
One of heros must say sad goodbye ..
You is hero of mine and my love is so true mention in...
not all story have happy ends..
happy end missed there ...
One of heros must stay and other must missing other everyday ...
I miss you that way ...
I always pray for ...
Keep touch my heart ...
Keep hurting me ...
I like your pains . ..
I love you again again ..

My love is an Ocean of words

My love is an Ocean of words ... No papers can be enough for ...
No letters can be enough for compelete words ...
my love is an One more saddest tune and One more Tear in love lake ...
I long to go there ...
I need to reach you ...
I need to stay with you there ...
To be with you forever ...
To touch your soul one time more ..
To tell you how much i love and care ..
I know my love is imposible to walk out on earth anymore,
I know also i cant stop feel this way about you ....
loving you touched my soul deep ...
I cant ignore my soul ...
in all my life details i search you ...
My hands almost touchs yours ones ...
My heart crys inside my ribe ..
I cant ignore My hearts movemments that way ...
Its not enough to say ...
I love you ...
I cant hide a big love captures me ...
I love you ...
I cant ignore the big love which move my small heart ...
I listen a party in sky,
something inside me foretell,
tomorrow my soul will set free and soldiers of love will be waiting for me ...
I'll love you again there, I'ill be for you there ...
I love You ...

Must I Signature On My Death Certifites ...

Hmmmm, i felt a lost , how came i must leave my home Iraq within tow weeks, oh God i dont wanna leave my sky , my stars , my heart , my soul , my love ,my poeple , my land which hold not only my physicaly as a body but everything is me and mine , God make that day never ever come , God make my last day eariler than leaving Iraq day comes, i lost almost my five senses, i didnt feel hunger or thirsty, i was sitting around table on meals time just because my parents asked for, i was eating without any feeling or a disire .. I didnt believe that within few days i wont breath Iraq air , wont see Iraq sun light. Ah almost i was dead , what a bitter life, i cant believe it, tomorrow i will say GOODBYE MY HOME, GOODBYE MY LIFE, GOODBYE IRAQ, isnt it ?AHHHH i was distroyed... Its morning now, Sarah ,Sarah wake up, come have your breakfast and be ready on 1 pm a texi would be here to take us . . My God am i on a nightmare or a wake ? Ahhhh unfortunaly am a wake.. I strated sms_ing and phoning my friends for say Goodbye, God n0w its 1 pm .. Texi didnt come on time, hehe i wish wont come. hmmm, my house was full of relatives, friends and neihbours ,most were sad ,crying and wish a good luck for us ,its bitter momments, while i was still shocked.. 15 mins. later the TEXI was at my home step,, i disapeared inside the CAR WHICH WILL DRIVE ME DEATH,, it was very long way, i experinced one thousands mixture of feelings, very hard years of momments, i felt very cold even it was actually hot weather, a mid of summer season, i was gazing through the car window , eating every sight of iraq by my eyes while my tears were sheding from the heart bottom , i was breathing deeply as a fish is going out of see, i dont know what happend sudenly i felt very hungry ,i felt as if i didnt eat for a century , i had 5 or 6 sandwitch of chicken ,i was very thristy too i drank 5 bottels of paspi before i reached iraqi borders, i got out of car at iraq check point, my papers and everything were officaly and okay, get into your car, now you can go ahead . 15 mins later i was out iraq with my family ........