Love At Teen Age!

..... When she was younger. Maria was used to write her daily life's events day by day, but nowdays the rush of life and busy days, she did not get time to do that anymore. while she was searching in her things, she found her daily notebook. she caught it and started paging it and smiling. her sight droped on a note was written in red ink, It was her craziness at a few years late.. Hehe, it was teenger's green vesion and rushness. She had written there i will never stop loving you Aby, name of her and Aby with broken heart , Maria and Aby love forever . What a crazy i was! She though, she conituned thinking, all that is already a past, nowdays, even i can not remeber anything of him nor the colors of his eyes too ! Always we think that after we lost our lover it would be the end of life on this earth! we let this nagative notions imprison ourselves but something in our side call us to keep on life and not give up of live, we crys for days and keep think in that love to realise later that it was just mirage and it was not a true love, it was just a craziness, we laught and we keep laught on that later when we remeber those days, as i already did. Maria was thinking and trying to remeber anything of Aby, and she started wondering, is he married? Has babies? Is he got nice wife or a wife who cut his bearths. Hehe or he still can not forget me, Hehe. Maria, Maria , a sound was calling her, she really like that sound, its john's lovely voice, her sweartheart and her amazing husband. nowdays she is living a happy love life with John and their son luka, nine months old, sometime they agrue but later they laught and luaght.. Mmm, John? Did you prepared luka's milk bottle? you know,today is sunday and we have to attend your friend's marrege party.. oh yeah, how i forget that? John replied..and added so you most get ready to company me this time, okay sweetie ?. Yeah honey, Im so intersting to attend this party, i realy do like to see that couple, i listened that they were in love since they were kids.. Yeah yeah, all friends are wondering how they met again and they in love yet. He replied.. Hehe no matter sweetheart me and you were not know each other just after we met five years ago at market and there started our big love story, do you rember? Maria said to John with cute smile, her eyes were shining when she was looking at John's eyes. John hugged her and added yeah, sure i do remeber and our love will be so for ever. A sound came from next room, this time , it was luka's crying, both of them rushed into him....
Its 9:25 , both of John and Maria were ready to join party. They enjoyed and had fun there, suddenly Maria saw nice couple laughting and having fun on next table. Oh!, she shocked, is that Aby? She wondered. Oh he looked happy with his wife or may be she was his girlfriend. Meeting Aby remind her of her craziness again when she was teenger. Aby now is just a past , its just a man as other men around her, nothing special, John and Luka are everything in her life, she was thinking...
After party is finished. Maria and John reached home at midnight after spending good time at party.They were very tired, John slept deeply while Maria was watching him and smiling, he is her amazing babe, she droped a warm kiss on his check and huggend him and she slept.

Mama

..... Sun gives light and heat,,, moon and stars less the darkness of nights. Right? flowers beauty gardens and fields,,, everyone need a warm hug and a tinder words. Right? Mama, you gives me all that a twice! Mama, you are so nice. can i tell you i like you so much? Mama, im so tired today, i need you to be by my side,,, give me your caring advice... Mama, mama, i need you so much !! I wanna cry between you arms, hug me so tight,,, im so tired, Why tears like my eyes??! why life is so hard ??!
Oh mama, thanks for your warm hug, how a kind you are ! your hug is so warm, i'm okey now, my burden is gone... Please, don't worry mama, im a big girl nowdays, why do you always think of me as a child? When winter sit in at my year! When tears clean my eyes! When i feel so weak, you always who weep my tears, you always who give me power to get up again,, you give to my eyes light,, you guide me to right way,, you give to my life warm... Mama, you know? i always afraid darkness?? It always remind me of my weakness. why when i fall behind sadness's bars, i see tears in your eyes? why you always like to see me smile?
You know mama, something changed my life? someone got in my life? Mama, don't worry anymore, im not a little girl anymore, already im in love with someone seems so nice, may be he will weep my tears, may be he will hug me so tight... Don't worry mama, everything will go all right.. Hush mama now, just hug me so tight, i wish to rest between your arms! I love you so much ...

So, Are You Ready?

.... I wanna a big love, i wanna a man to stand by him forever, baby ... my heart wanna nobody but you only, I wanna you to be my man, is it that crazy?
i wanna spend all my time and the rest of my life side by side with you baby, i wanna be with you only, can i be your girl ? reply me now, baby...
Oh baby, don't mind, don't be fussy, don't ask this and that as a crazy, stop wondering, love is so blind as well as its so crazy. Stop this, stop that, you are in love,come on, baby...
Open your eyes, shut up them, shake your hands up and down, move your lips and scream so crazily " i love you ,,,," , wake up, you are in love with me, come on, baby...
walk miles along the day, take a rest or run as a crazy, you are in love, come on, baby... Wherever you go, wherever you run, hahah, i will be there, as your bodygaurd, baby ...
Whenever you wake up or you fall a sleep, even in your dreams, im there, you won't get free of my love, baby...
Hey hey,, stop laughting like that, i can see tears knock your eyes, I can feel your heart beats so fast just for me only...
Hey hey, don't afraid, don't hesitate, remember, love is for big men not for halves. remeber,that in love, you must be as crazy...
hey hey, stop looking at me like that, your eyes eariler told mines what you could not say it by words, baby... Take ur eyes off of mine, they do not wanna to give up from mine. Oh, come on,,,,, so would you be my man, baby? Hey hey, leave every thing now, and get ready, love is a big war,so, are you ready? I love you so much baby...

Short Story .. Untitled ..

.... On 20th Dec/1990. At winter cold days ... She woke up on an alarm tune. She looked at o'clock, It was 7:05 am. She rose up from her bed hardly, her sight droped on the mirror was in her room, she walked toward it .. She gazed at the mirror , she was with bronze silky face , brown eyes with full lips.. she saw in mirror another woman . It's me? asking herself.. She didnt believe what she saw,,she looks older now . Even she was around 35 years old but her eyes were having same brightness and shine which she ever have.. "Oh God "! she cried in anger while she was looking at the lines under her eyes which are signs of getting old. she wished to back younger again, She tried to pull out these lines, but thats life phases, child, teenger, adult then old, at last kissing the death .. Suddenly she heared a sound comes from neighborhood. She rushed toward the window to see whats going around. She pulled the curtains, sun fall its bright rays through her room's window. She didnt believe what she was seeing.. Her heart started beating so fast and she felt a pain in her stomach. it was same man who she saw three days ago.. She watched him as she was watching a painting , she watched him till he disapeared ..her room's door is opened, "morning mama ".. She greeted her mama.. Darlin huged her daughter and droped a light and soft kiss on her face , she looked at Elina , its already a big girl. Its 9 years old. It was a live copy of her papa. Days passed so fast and soft, she thinked ,seconds of silent passed away, she remembered her husband , He was her 1st and only love .. They were so happy .. She remebered 1st meeting , 1st time they confessed their love , 1st hug , 1st kiss... She remembered the way which her heart was beating when they were meeting and a pain in her stomach, she remembered how much they were happy when she was pregrant in Elina .again her room door is knocked . It was the servant she added "someone is knocking the door , he is asking about you madam".. "Okay , i will be there within 5 mins.". she replied. She went down stairs .. "Oh , its He.. What is he doing here on my door step ? What he is asking for ?", She wondered.. she was about to step fast toward him but she controled herself.. "Morning".. said greating her." Morning".. she replied him." Is that mr. Adam department?" . He asked.. "no and added Mr. Adam is the next door to the left". She replied. "Oh, sorry. I missed adress.. Thanks for helping..he said.. Thats ok, she replied . Im Sam , the new rinter and your new nieghbor so soon. Me darlin , nice to meet you .. Nice to meet he replied with warm smile. Good bye .. Good bye...She watched him till he disapeared at Mr. Adam home.. She got in her home to have breakfast with her daughter. At 7:30 she left home to driving her car as everyday with Elina to drive her at school . She was driving while her past was playing at her mind as a tape of events before her eyes. She remebered the accidant which took her husband away from her and Elina , her tears blust on her checks. She remembered that hard time as its live now.. She didnt meet any man after her late husband . She was wondering whats wating her? Is she in love with the new rinter? She was scaring what its life hiding to her.. Mama we reached school. Elina said with a cute smile. She looked at her daughter. She hugged her so tightly, She kissed her.. She thanked God for giving Elina to her. Elina gave her strong again. She thought that she must be strong. She must never give up and never feel down . She must straggling for Elina, she must do her best . Car is stoped near school's door. Elina got out the car ,, Bye mama .. Bye darling , Love you ... Darlin drived in her way to her office ... She was ready to face what are waiting her ! She did't know what life hiding to her but she was sure that she will do impossible for Elina. She stoped her car ,then, she walked to her office with her usual smile ...

When I Hug You

Nothing is impossible when im with you , Nothing is matter baby just being with you ,,, No time , No place , No one just you & me ... Yesterday has gone and its early to mention tomorrow , No matter baby im with you now ! take my eyes , take my heart , take my life and give a hug ,,, when i hug you , snow melt , floods blust , earth stop moving around sun and my heart turns from left to right ! When i hug you , sun shines after a long dark night to fill my heart with hope tune again and again after centuries of sarrow !
When i hug you , spring sit in after a long scary winter , trees clothe with green , flowers rise up to beauty every inch in the earth readiness for celebrating with merry music ! When i hug you , i put off all masks , i get free from all chains and obstacls which suffocate me and imprison me ... When i hug you , the soul returns to my body and the blood flow up into my veins ...
When i hug you , my eyes hugs yours ones to sink in yours deeply , my face kisses yours one softly and my hands search your ones to believe that you are mine, because when im with you, i born in love with you again, i feel myself as a baby between your arms , i search myself in you, i search peace, love and saftey in you to rest forever ... When i hug , the space between reality and fancy disapear and touching the stars turns simply into truth .. Everything is possible when you are by my side .. Thanks God, thanks sky , thanks earth,Thanks LOVE ... Oh baby let me thank you for being my SOUL TWIN in love
"I LOVE YOU"

Thanks My Glasses

Easy Comes , Easy Gose!
Yeah, how easily my heart is became yours but how impossible is to get it back! Every infection has an injection, Every start has an End, people bron, people die, some simle, some cry, some watch moon at night and some fly to visit it , Then , why your love entered my heart and touched my soul and my mind so badly as awhole but it did not get enought of me , may be just after my heart dose not beating anymore ! Im a TIRED , Just a minute. im searching for sleep to close my eyes and to give my body a rest for a while, but i can not get it, where are you my goods friends or in other word where are you sleep tablets? Oh, thanks sleep tablets, you can a little bit help ,, I addicated you and i hope that you won't get bored in my body and you would keep work ... my Eyes are crying damnly without stop! Just a minute. Please, Give me a tissue paper, i wanna weep my tears drops on My GLASSES. Sorry my GLASSES you must help too, you must be patience on my eyes' flood , Its LOVE SICK ! Thanks my GLASSES, i would mention that in my daily notebook! Let me check my memory, is it still work? let me check out what i learnt in school, one plus one is two, earth moves in circle movemment aroud sun, water boils at 100 C and human being breathe oxygen . all of Mathematic, medicine and sciences have basics and theories but why love got out of normal? Why dose love related with craziness not with a logical thoery? Why i didnt pass love exims at love school ? why at 1st lessen i got DISMISS ? Why i droped in one side love trap? Please medicine , could you help? Pull out my heart and give me new one ? Earse him in my brain center and let me have a rest !. Please life, don't mind , if i asked you to stop this shit ! Why did love touch me so badly and did tease me so badly ? Please life give me an adimt to get wings to fly to another planet ! To search other home , may be i will get a REST !

Crazy visions

I've compossed an amazing music ,, would u like to share me playing it ?
I've created a new game ,, would u like to share me playing it ?...
Joine me to painting the seas , the mountains and trees ,come with me to dance upon rains drops !
Wait ,, Wait ,, i've gotten a crazy notion ,, would you follow me ? I feel like to fall myself into a sea ! What are you thinking ? Are you thinking same with me , Do you like to DIE with me today ?
Wait ,,, Wait ,,, i've remembered that you've promised to me to take me with you to visit the moon togather tonight. and you've promised to me to watch the moon togather untill it set ...
Hey, do you think same with me ? Im thinking to creat a special year for us , we sew it as we wish , we add and delete in it. We don't make any space between light and dark and between day and night and we add fifth season to it. Woul you like to share me this year ? ...
This evening , would you join me? i want to dance under moon light ...
Listen to me.. I want to live with you the rest of my life .. Dont leave me in the winter cause i afraid winds movment and rains drops which falling on my home's windows.. Don't forget that you've promised to me to build our small house on beach in a place where nobody can reach it and where birds sings on our home's windows at 1st sun ray falling.
Don't forget to tell me stories in which their heros and heriones have changed into stars to watch love cities from evils while , you tell me stories while me sets around heater to sew a sweater made of trees leaves for you .
Be ready my love, this night we'll go to collect stars to make rings and neckles to decorate and adorn the land of love , angels and rain ...