Up But Down

these days passed on with more down without up ,,, tears full my eyes up ,, sadness tears my heart up ,, i shut my doors up ,,, i pray for and rise my hands for God up ,, i cant forget who was churr me up ,, i cant forget who left me down nor up ,, i cant shut my windows up either i cant rise my curtains up ,, beautiful memorial full my darkness up, i lost in deep sadness i cant rise up ,, my tears roled on my checks i cant break my burden up ,, my life turn down side up ,, my dreams run away before my eyes i cant catch it up ,,‏ ‏everything is going with me is about down nor up