Up But Down

these days passed on with more down without up ,,, tears full my eyes up ,, sadness tears my heart up ,, i shut my doors up ,,, i pray for and rise my hands for God up ,, i cant forget who was churr me up ,, i cant forget who left me down nor up ,, i cant shut my windows up either i cant rise my curtains up ,, beautiful memorial full my darkness up, i lost in deep sadness i cant rise up ,, my tears roled on my checks i cant break my burden up ,, my life turn down side up ,, my dreams run away before my eyes i cant catch it up ,,‏ ‏everything is going with me is about down nor up

I Have Right to Dream . .

As a butterfly flys then flys for a long time to drope its own pair of wings on a beautiful flower to steal a rest ,,, i was flying and flying in my own kingdom , i've sit under an old tree's shadow to give to my space a rest... A pair of birds fall down on an oasis to full thier thirest. I droped my back side by side with that kind tree to have a rest as i droped all my dreams in hopes ocean to come ture within mintues, i lost at an ocean of vesions,, i saw every thing nice,, angels fly at every place,, every spot was full of spirit, beauty of nature, blue and pure sky gave to my soul a sprit to go with spell world, i saw angels comming toward me with a magic quitar and started playing a holy music with a pleasure, i was lonely there, no earthy creatures there, silent was only what i Could not break, i heared air movment move on ,here all that gave me a dizzy, i needed you to be by side, my tears roled on my checks, i missed you to be with me as past ,i was so tired to think why you are so far as a star at dark sky, I fall a sleep for some time,, i lost for some time,oh yeah i've lost, It was an amazing night, we were side by side, you have hugged me so tight, we danced and danced under moon light, you've told me what i ever want to hear, my heart was dancing in my ribe, i was flying for a while and dancing for a while, i forget my burden for a while, we were toghter for some time, that time i was as butterfly ,, you've caught my heart between your hands ,,yeah that is my love,, sorry i woke up, why i woke up ? i couldnt see you here,, sorry all that was a dream, our meet was just a dream,,how much i did hope that dream never ever have an end ! Yeah i did

I Have Right to Dream . .

As a butterfly flys then flys for a long time to drope its own pair of wings on a beautiful flower to steal a rest ,,, i was flying and flying in my own kingdom , i've sit under an old tree's shadow to give to my space a rest... A pair of birds fall down on an oasis to full thier thirest. I droped my back side by side with that kind tree to have a rest as i droped all my dreams in hopes ocean to come ture within mintues, i lost at an ocean of vesions,, i saw every thing nice,, angels fly at every place,, every spot was full of sprit, beauty of nature, blue and pure sky gave to my soul a sprit to go with spell world, i saw angels comming toward me with a magic quitar and started playing a holy music with a pleasure, i was lonely there, no earthy creatures there, silent was only what i Could not break, i heared air movment move on ,here all that give me a dizzy, i needed you to be by side, my tears roled on my checks, i missed you to be with me as past ,i was so tired to think why you are so far as a star at dark sky, I fall a sleep for some time,, i lost for some time,oh yeah i've lost, It was an amazing night, we were side by side, you have hugged me so tight, we danced and danced under moon light, you've told me what i ever want to hear, my heart was dancing in my ribe, i was flying for a while and dancing for a while, i forget my burden for a while, we were toghter for some time, that time i was as butterfly ,, you've caught my heart between you hands ,,yeah that is my love,, sorry i woke up, why i worke up ? i couldnt see you here,, sorry all that was a dream, our meet was just a dream,,how much i did hope that dream never ever have an end ! Yeah i do

Phases Of Love

When i was a child, i drawn an angel's wish in my small mind, to dresse with a white wedding dress and walk by ,, but i was just a child dose not understand why like to dress in white ... I was a child an my heart was pure as white and nothing was in my mind just to dress in white ,, day by day my wish fade by .. i found my own self grow up and playing with my dolls was not feeding my new mind,,, im seven years now and walking to school became my another world,, i passed year by year and blessed my parents,, with every year passed by i was grow up and also my mind ,, when i became 12, child inside me started to mild ,, now im not child but i wished to buy pets, dolls and play with kids and miss to be a child ... When i became eighteen my chidhood wish started grow in my heart not only in mind ,, and dress with white didnt mean to me same as when i was a child ,,, i drawn your visage in my heart not only my mind , i searched for you around and at my books' lines useless i could find,,, now im tweenty_one but love didnt visit my world ,, i fed up but who came ? Oh my God my heart is beating in my ribe so wild,, is it love? Or just a thristy dream visit my heart, my soul and my mind,, is it you who was drawn in my small mind ? Is it you who grow up with me all these years since i was a child.. Is you who created by My God to be my soul mate , my love , my everything in my small world ? First time my eyes met yours i believed that you would be walk by .we pass by. my dream come true when with I love you ,,, Oh i love also to dress in white

IM HAPPY WITHOUT YOU ,, IM GOOD ,, with you and withouT YOU ,, IM GOoD ,,

Our meeting was as a blank in my past ,, you took one year from my TIME ! Oh yeah i found a big baby in your eyes ,, i found in you what i always loved to have ,, you was about to figure out what in my side ,, you have figured out inside me that everlasting baby who try to come out ,, we were perfect to bring our love to this earthy life ,, our dream was to test true love from its widest angles ,, No doubt at Once I believed blindly that you would not be mine and our love would be a baby step toward change love spaces hopelessly ,, i believed that our love will kill us without leaving any mercy on our heartheats .. Oh Yeah You was mine all the time ,, you was guarding me all my time ,, i was for you your everything ,, i was for you what droped you back to life ,, i was for you the ONE you ever dream to meet ,, even all that I was knowing that our love would nOT BRING TO THIS LIFE WHAT OUR HEARTS LOOKED ARGENTLY FOR ,, I WAS BELIEVING OUR LOVE WILL LEAVE TEARs On our eyes and crying for moOn would be HelpLesS .. I didnt believe you .. Yeah I didnt believe your love Thats what saved my heart , yeah thats what made me save myself from say Love Words ,,, I SAVED MYSLELF WELL AT ONCE ,, I WAS READY WELL FOR the momment OF say GOOD BYE to CoME ,, your LOVE WORDS WERE a nightmare visited OUR visions for MANY Nights and Months ,, its was SO kindly to wake up EARLY AND TO FIND OURSELVES SEPARTED BY EARTHY DISTANCE which circled us ,, I CANT BE YOURS AS YOU CANT BE MINE THATS OUR FATE ! I accepeted ALL THAT as you recently did ,, i cant say i was mistake in your life but i can say i mistaked when i believed that you may be can be my ONE ,,, this momment came ,, GOOD BYE FROM MY LIFE FOREVER ,, GOOD BY IM GOOD ,, IM JUST AS I WAS THe GIRL who WOULD NOT FALL HELPLESSLY ,,,, IM the ONE WHO WOULD ALWAYS BE SURVISED !! YEAH , IM THE ONE WHO WOULD NOT FALL DOWN FOR EARTHLY STUPIDNESS !! IM GOOD Yeah IM WELL ,, you are just blank in my past ,, , SORRY YOU CANT BE MY ONE !! GOOD BYE FOREVER,, YEAH IM GOOD !! ...

My Kingdom

Im not a girl not yet a woman ,,, im still in between ,, i still cant be the girl nor the woman ,, im still searching your visage in my dark space .. My darkness is not a fate but its a choice ... Hmm ,,, Yeaht I still imperison in my darkness searching for that spot light which can take me out of all that .. Im still searching for my myth love which i ever dream to have ,,, im still searching for my myth love which i ever readed it in orintal myths and western novels, that love which i ever write about at my daily booknotes and my sleepy peoms... im still searching for my hero who i ever painted his forehead among my books' lines and i ever gathered every star in my sky to figure out his eyes... Im still dreaming about you to give me a hand to get me out of all that disorder... Im waiting yet for love which gonna arrange my themes and my unclear visions of love.... Hmmm,,, Im in middle yet i can't be what im nor what i must to be .. My wings still weak i still cant fly nor land on a spot .. My speace still unclear and all doors are blocked in my ways... I still waiting for super power for survice or for rest at the other world .. I lost my keys in ocean of visions .. I lost my wings i cant fly anymore .. I still forword at to be send to give me a hand in builing my special world and to color my dark kingdom... I still that stupid girl who believe in love as i figured it out in my small innocene mind... I was mistaked when i thought that child is matured inside me,, i was mistaked when i thought i've got ride of that fresh child inside me.. Im still childish,, im in between im not a girl not yet a woman . Yeah im in middle... I still search for some thing to make my space beautiful.. I still waiting for you to enter my windows to break up my chains. Im what i was, i still sink in blood sea waiting for life boat... Hmmm,,, Yeah i need you to make my world .. I need for that magic of love.......

Oh, Yes For Love

As childs run on green fields ,,, we run and run so fast ,,, both of us collected a bunch of colorful flowers to beauty our necks with necklace we made to both of us ..... I'v put my small hand in yours one to run with you and run so fast ,,, till our breathes cut and droped our bodies on grass to get rest ,,, hiding under a tree's shadow in middle the forest ,,, sun falling its ray on tree above us ,,, Brids resting on trees and bushes ,,, sun rising on green fields ,,, blue and pure sky watching the beauty of nature around us ,,, butterflies dancing on flowers ,,, our hearts are dacing in our ribes ,,, pairs of birds, flowers ,,, trees ,,, green grass ,,, beauty nature and weather all are sining , dancing and enjoying on music of our hearts... angels are praying and watching both of us ..... As a couple of childs Roling on wet grass ,,, roling and roling to mature on wet grass and get wet ,,, all of sudden ,,, woke up both of us ,,, our eyes is opened to see ourself not kids ,,, both of us are ready to test new world of love ,,, every part of ours dancing, singing, crying and asking us to get close to touch secrets of love, to test sweetness of life .... Our eyes got up to see we are not kids,, Is that love which mature us or love woke up childhood inside us ,,, we run as kids and we pass towenty six ,,, were us kids and we are twenty six or we were adults and love return us into kids? wake up, wake up, yes wake up , oh yes, wake up ,,, that is love ,, lets never waste it ,,, lets all celeberat for love, love, yes love , Oh yes For LOVE ....